More than words

“What would you say if I took those words away? Then you couldn’t make things new just by saying ‘I Love You.'”

I really love this song. It is still hard to listen to; the pain is strong when I hear it and probably won’t ever heal , but I listen to it when it comes on anyway.  It has a good message and I love to hear it.  I was just watching “Rock of Ages” and this song is featured in it, so I thought I would pause to share my thoughts on this, as they were revealed to me.

I loved a woman once, and it didn’t work out.  She and I went different ways and that is that.  We are both better for it. This was the song we called “our song” and it is inexorably tied to her, whether I want it to or not.  It is likely she thinks of me when she hears it, and I hope it is with a smile.  Maybe someday I will deal with this 100%, but I am not ready and I don’t see that happening for awhile.

Two things are important about this time I heard it, though.

  1. I am over the pain enough that I can listen to the song and not get upset.  I can just love the song again and remember what love feels like.
  2. I don’t actually care of she knows how I feel about it anymore.  I don’t hate her and I don’t bear her malice.  I am just healing and that feels good.
  3. I strongly believe you should never let pain stop you from experiencing what you love.  And I love this song and this band.

Yep.  That was 3 things.  Sue me.

Enjoy it.  I’ll be in my bunk.

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